inescapable

i’m stuck slipping back and forth,
sliding between the thoughts of this
and the way things were before.
my mind is choked by the memory,
pinned to you with fierce regret.
i give it second, third, endless thought
while you carry on with no relent.
the dreams i used to succumb to
now fill my nights with dread,
darkness revealing the future
that now has question in its stead.
two short years filled with love’s length,
those which do not seem to be fading
but clinging to me with such strength.