someone once said

if it kills me

missfossey — Sun, 27 Feb 2011 07:30:27 +0000

I have been choking on my words,
they create a pain behind my eyes
and a tremor in my soul.

Sometimes I wish to be alone in this,
to believe I have the only one.
I know I am not

the only one stuck inside their mind,
unable to escape reality.

happiness will damn near destroy you.

I carefully craft my countenance
to create a sense of comfort.
Can you just imagine what might occur
if I took a chance on candor.

There is far too much on the line.
honesty is easy, fiction’s where genius lies.

If only to tell how she disappoints,
how he leaves me to wonder.

I just want to be certain, to be steady.
To stand on someone else’s two feet.

I am the feet of many.

i can’t give you what you think you gave me.

Wisdom says to lay it at His feet.
He will be my footprints in the sand.

But I already know I can count on Him.
I want to count on the hims and hers.

I don’t want to be alone in my thoughts,
I don’t want the truth to hurt.

This even is not enough.
My mind is still caught in my throat.

I fear I shall be shut up forever,
no words to say, no silence to break.

I may rip myself in two,
storing up that which I fear will offend.

Trial Run

missfossey — Sun, 09 Jan 2011 16:31:51 +0000

I am giving tumblr a chance to win my heart over. We shall see what comes of this.

these aren’t things i usually say

missfossey — Mon, 20 Dec 2010 08:34:18 +0000

that you may have let me down one too many times.
i can’t always be the one you can all turn to.
that i can’t raise them; i can’t do your job.
why would you do to us what they did to you?
you are running out of chances.
the burden of your carelessness is too much.
i just want you to teach me how to live,
instead of how not to.

Silence

missfossey — Wed, 24 Nov 2010 19:33:15 +0000

Silence is pregnant.
She waits, wanting, knowing.
When you break her
the world stops to stare
at the disturbance.

Silence is pregnant.
She waits and

thought

creeps

in.

Silence is here,
and she has made room for doubt.

‘sometimes, there are those times, it’s gotta be you’

missfossey — Sun, 07 Nov 2010 08:23:54 +0000

the twist of the sheets,
my pillow too hot,
unrelieved by the rain
blowing through.

i can only lay here,
thinking of you.
what we’re waiting for,
it kills me so sweetly;
i wait willing.

“I really want you to really want me.”

missfossey — Mon, 18 Oct 2010 07:08:18 +0000

There are times when it’s as if you have broken a character.

I don’t know what is real and what is not anymore.

so senseless

missfossey — Sun, 17 Oct 2010 02:47:59 +0000

I read the fact:
Five million children die each year

of hunger.

They are made of bones,
skin taught.
They taste naught.

Why can’t we feed them,
why must we be asked to act?

when i speak i cross my fingers

missfossey — Fri, 01 Oct 2010 10:12:01 +0000

we wait, we watch, we wonder–
if you could just find the strength

patience is sometimes such a lie.
my desperation is my truth.

all i have to hold is distance
until you close in on me.

i have the faith to hold my breath.

Let him who is without sin cast the first stone…

missfossey — Thu, 30 Sep 2010 20:50:57 +0000

Why is it that to be open minded you must forsake religion? The assumption that those with faith, particularly of the Christian sort, are simple, ignorant, and closed off from the world. The challenge I have for that mindset is to really consider what a Christian is, what faith is and how it differs vastly from religion. Religion has become the Westboro Baptist Church, one fallen leader in the limelight, a hierarchy of priests with little supervision, and generally they are all white Americans. Despite the fact that nearly eighty percent of Americans claim to be of the Christian faith, we are a secular nation. Most certainly our media is secular. Our education system is dominated by liberalism. The other twenty percent of our nation, Agnostic, Atheist, or Other, spend a great deal of time and energy trying to break down, undo, and sully the word Christian. Very often they call themselves to free-thinkers, the educated, the open minded. Why then do their speeches and calls for acceptance exclude Christians. Why does eighty percent of the country carry the guilt and blame for the wrong doings, the mistakes, and the evils of a small portion of the majority?

To me it seems to be severely discriminative and ignorant to tear down Christianity, or any faith for that matter, based on the actions of those who we see in the public circle. Because our country deals with a large issue of illegal immigration, is it acceptable to assume all non-whites are intruders breaking the law? Should we allow the high crime rate among minorities to support racism and hate? Do we assume all Germans were Nazis? Are all Priests child molesters? Why is it that all people choose to see the worst in one another?

The true mark of an open mind is to believe that we are all inherently equal regardless of race, belief, or sex. If a an individual, let them be Christian, Buddhist, or Atheist, does something wrong or adverse how can it be made the responsibility of their belief. Perhaps that individual’s treatment of their beliefs is to blame, but to tout it as a result of their choice of belief removes the responsibility from the individual. The point is that a person’s beliefs doesn’t make them inherently better or worse than another, but their actions which can set them apart.

The main problem for Christianity is that it is used as a soap box, or a weapon, against that which stands to counter it. But Christ, the big J.C. never used weapons, never used hateful speech. The source of the Christian faith is not the root of the issue, but the men who abuse it. Why so many are quick to blame God for the problems of man is beyond me.

Although eighty percent of Americans lay claim to the Christian faith, I think it is safe and educated to assume that such a statistic is really baseless. Christianity is much more than something one can identify with. To practice and share what I believe to be Christianity requires so much more than checking a box at census time. Though there are many groups of so-called Christians who use the name of God to spew their violence and their hate across the airwaves courtesy of our free thinking, liberal media, I choose to believe that their kind have done more harm for Christians than any non-believer could. Atheism does not offend God, a lack of belief only creates more opportunity to share the love and joy that embodies true Christianity. It is unfortunate that so many, believers and non-believers alike, have failed to understand the Christian faith.

I can only hope that some will one day learn to blame the problems of men on men, and look only to God in the hopes of change.

“The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For out of the overflow of his heart his mouth speaks.” -Jesus

flight

missfossey — Mon, 17 May 2010 19:32:46 +0000

everyone says it.
I want to be a bird.

a bird.
a bird.
a bird.
I want to be a damn bird.

I say to myself.

Don’t birds have to worry
about soaring hawks,
poisonous frogs,
or coming back to empty nests?

I just want to fly.